Sex After Kids: How Having Kids Ruined Our Sex Life

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A question was posed to me about sex after kids. HA, I thought. What sex life?

You see, my sexual side before having kids vs my sexual side of today are polar opposites. And by that, I mean that my desire to have sex is now nonexistent. I have a loving marriage, a happy home, and healthy children. My sex drive, however, is gone. Poof!

My pre-kid self was never an overly sexual person, but I never looked at sex as a task or a requirement. I enjoyed my husband and our intimacy. It was still fresh and new, and we were exploring who we were as a couple even after years of dating. We were satisfied with our sex life. Today, now that we are parents, sex has become a task to cross of my list, knowing that it’s an essential part of, “Keeping the spark alive” in my marriage.

I’ve had my own mother say to me,

You know he needs it. And if he isn’t getting it at home, he’ll look for it.

Thankfully, I have no fears of that. None. My husband and I are 100% faithful and loyal to each other.

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Our commitment is strong

I hear people complain about being intimate only once a week, and I can’t help but chuckle a little inside. That’s a lot of sex in my opinion. Though I’m entirely aware that my version of “a lot” might be completely unreal to some couples. Or perhaps not?

My poor husband must be a saint. Between work, laundry, cleaning, cooking, parenting, and trying to keep my sanity, I have no time to think about intimacy. And when the kids are fast asleep, the last thing I care to do is anything other than relax or fall asleep myself.

He never pushes me and while I’m sure it’s a struggle for him, he accepts how I feel. I know one day this will be different but very little sex has become our sexual norm.

Fortunately, I’m aware of the fact that we have little to no sex life. So aware that I can pinpoint the exact reasons why we stopped having sex so much:

  • Pregnancy. I was actually scared to have sex when I was pregnant. I was scared that sex would result in early labor. I know I’m wrong, but it was a very real fear to me.
  • Exhaustion. I’m tired. I mean seriously tired. I work a full-time job, do the grocery shopping, prep the meals (he does help cook a ton), head out to different sporting events for the kids, then manage the house when I actually get home. Don’t get me wrong, I love being the one to do most of the housework (he does help so let’s give him some credit), but the last thing on my mind when the kids fall asleep is sex.
  • I no longer feel sexy. It’s true. Not a single ounce of me feels sexy when I look in the mirror. Sure, I can find an outfit that is flattering, or get a confidence boost from makeup, but deep down I still don’t feel sexy. I don’t even like to be seen naked.
  • I hold grudges. This one might sound odd, but hear me out. If I ask my husband to do something, and he completely ignores me, I get frustrated. If I have to then ask him that same thing multiple times a day for several days, and then end up having to take care of what I asked him to do myself… you bet I’m holding that over his head. So why on earth would I want to do a task that he wants, when I’m tired, I don’t feel sexy, and he can’t even do a simple thing I ask him to do? Petty.. You bet, but I don’t care.

Writing this post has made me realize that while we don’t have the typical sex life of other married couples, we have one that works for us. It’s allowed us to truly remember why we are married. We have an incredible partnership and we have always been better as a team.

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Sex is an “extra” and not the main reason we are together.

So, while our version of sex after kids is pretty dull to most, it’s quite honest to us. We are able to be incredibly intimate with each other even with an active sex life on hold. To me, partnership and trust are the truest forms of intimacy.

 

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